Sunday, January 27, 2008
Sitting infront of the mirror.I look at me!!Who is this girl,who is me?My appearances have changed!!Have I?
My skin is glowing
My scars have faded
My eyes are shinning
My hair has changed
I am healthy
I am pretty
Its a victory!!!
So much has changed over the time.Have I?The outer appearances,does it have any relevance,with my inner existence?A difficult question!!!
I say....my outer appearances have changed.As my inner self is awake.!!
It is awake...it is intuned to ME,The Me who is now!!My past is past,i had let it breed over my present.I consciencely avoid it now.But,the question still stays!!
I look deep into my eyes and ask!!!Have i changed?So many questions running through my mind!!Has my spirit died?Has my soul lost it's substance?Does the innocence still breath?My eyes tell me a lot!!
I have not changed.!!
My spirit is alive.My soul is still pure.I am still innocent in many complex ways.!!
But,i ask again,have i changed?.The answer comes from my heart.Yes,U have changed...in a very subtle way.But,this change is the very reason for your pain.
What is it,what is it?
Something beautiful has died of you.I really don't know what it is!!!I feel incomplete!!
What is it?what is it?
Oh heart let me know!!!My brain speaks another languageand my heart seems so blue!!
You have lost self-love,my dear!!!Why,why have I?
Now,the blame game begins!!
Oh god,not again!!But it is the truth!!Love killed me,made me blue!!
Now what's next?What you want to do?Confused again!I ask..do I Choose Life or Death!!
Something inside me speaks!!
I won't let you die!!I ask why?
You are a life And you have a purpose!!I ask what the purpose is?
what is my life without love?What is the meaning of my existence?
Why so many battles?I am tired of people.I am tired of promises
I am tired of hopes.What is my purpose?Why my happiness doesn't count?
Why can't i be a part somebody?My heart aches for my love.I don't know how to live without it!!!I am tired of this life!!
The purpose is greater than love,Your existence is greater,greater than any depression,pain or deceive.You can't control anyone.One you can is YOU.If you choose to cry,you will never move on!!If you choose to smile,you will see the light!!
Well said!!It is so easy to say all this,but difficult to imply!!!
THINKING AGAIN I SAY "its time to imply"
I have let myself go a lot!!And its time,i give respect to I.Lot of things have changed during this time..friends,approach to life,my passion,....my life!!!
But,i choose to keep one thing constant!!
I will never let it die!!
I will never change for any guy!!
I will never change,to make an ego fly!!
I will not change!!!
Sometimes these self conversatios are the best answers to many unanswered problems of our life.