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City of Fire\m/, State of Revolution\m/, India

Bindaas Thankam

Bindaas Thankam
"You got to have an eye to capture life!"-Thankam Kumaran

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Love Always Anu Didi&Chacha












I am blessed that i have you,
Was lost for long without you.
Searched you everytime,
But,the time had to fly.

Lost in my own troubles,
You came in my dreams like a bubble.
Wondered many times,did you love me?
Questioned everytime when you hugged me.

The mind that was conditioned for so long,
Bitter lies made things go wrong.
Unable to reach to you,
Delt with my own blues.
Never knew,you were hurting too.

State of mind so deflected,
Emotions never reflected.
But,in my hearts of heart i loved you,
I wish,i told you,
How much I missed you!

Had lost the art of expression,
Living a life in suppression.
Angry at life many times,
For not letting you by my side.
I cried,
I died manytimes.

Time is a healer they say,
For a brighter day.
There is an end to the night,
Life full is of surprise.

You standing for me with open arms,
Keeping me safe from all the harms.
The human mind can't be conditioned for long,
When love we hold is so strong.

When i needed you,
You were in control.
When i was loosing my faith,
You were there to hold.


As the troubled times are over,
We are much closer.
I can confide into you,
I don't have to hide from you.
It feels good,it feels great!
There is only love no space for hate.

I was blind not to understand,
No matter what may come,you wont leave my hand.
I feel sad for not understanding you,
Never feel that i din't love you.

The new chapter in our lives,
Has many promises and no hidden lies.
Many smiles,
And many more sunshines.

For the brighter future And happy days,
I pray.

Love Always

Sometimes...












Sometimes you are right,
That we may lose the light.
Solving our differences,
By exploring new chances.
By just being by your side,
We can lead a happy life,

Sometimes i am right,
And we may end up in a fight.
Love is said to be unconditional,
But,attimes one is over-whelmingly emotional.
Then,i need you to hold me,
Love me the way you always told me.

Sometimes we both are wrong,
Untuned to the melody of our song.
Listening to our heart beats,
Can sang-froid this heat.
Sometimes penning a new song,
Can make our love strong.

We both sync right,
When we want to spend the whole night,
Just looking into each other's eyes.
Melting into each other,
Just loving each other,
Staying together forever.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Eternal Love










Bury your worries on me my love,
Lay your soul on the cushion of my heart.
I'm with you near or far.
If,you love me nothing can break us apart
And you know i love you from all my heart!
True love is not about having someone.
But,wanting the best for the one!
The love we share is deep seeded.
No wind,no rain can erode it!
So,when going gets tough,
And darkness surrounds you,
Look into my eyes,
The hope of lite,
Will be mightier than the sun in the sky.

Monday, September 7, 2009

i love you the way you are.......












Lucky I am that i have you,
There is no one who completes me like you do.
We may be like the sky and the ocean,
Glad i am,i have found my heaven.

I don't seek for the sun,the moon and the stars,
Because i love you the way you are.

Imperfect i may be in many ways,
But,i know the love we share is here to stay.

When you feel low or down,
You will find me around,
Caressing your soul,
Playing the motherly role,
I will be your better half,
Sharing your joys,pain,tears and laugh.

Sometimes i am an unpredictable child,
But,i fear not because you won't let my thoughts go blind.
There is a magic that you have spelled upon me,
Your love has nurtured the woman in me.

No matter how many million miles away you stand,
I shall be there to hold your loving hand,
I shall always be yours,even if the time slips by like sand,
Just love me the way i am.

I don't seek for the sun,the moon and the stars,
Because i love you the way you are.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Cos now I am holding your hand......











No temptation is greater than your love,
No warmth is greater than your hug,
No sun is mightier than your eyes,
No moon is calmer than your mind,
There may be many fools and kings,
Many suiters who may bling,
But,i don't really care about them,
Cos now i am holding your hand.

My heart is beating one for two,
And you know it is only for you,
Never will i leave your side,
No matter how rough may be the ride,
Because the love that has bound,
I had never found,
There may be fools and kings,
Many suiters who may bling,,
But,I dont really care about them,
Cos now I am holding your hand.

Life taught me many things,
Like loving fools pretending to be kings,
Love with is you so believable,
Until you things were insatiable,
There may be many fools and kings,
Many suiters who may bling,
But,i don't really care about them,
Cos now I am holding your hand.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

The Music Man











He sat by the shores of the uneasy ocean,
The music it played was symphony no.Heaven.
He was serenaded by the natures' composition,
Something he looked up for the inspiration.
The fire within him to make the world dance on his tunes,
For him is like painting the night blue.
His thoughts wandered everytime the waves hit him,
Should he dive or let the music die within him?
He had the music running through his veins,
He had the charms to make mermaids insane.
The soft angel voice enchanting every butterfly,
The music he played made the heart fly high.
The music that runs through this soul,
Reminds me that a dimond comes from coal.
Many dreams in the eyes of the young lad,
To make his life happy n family glad.
So many expectations,
And many depositions....
He still dives into the ocean,
Deeper and deeper with subtle commotions.
He fears for sometimes,
That he may be lost,
But,he knows he will settle in time.
Because the deeper the water,
The calmer they run.
Darker they may seem,
Their light is mightier than the sun
He will swim until he creates his own symphony
He will enchant until he makes history
He wont give up cos he is the music man of the century.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Confessions of a messed up mind











One day i decided to join the rat race!
I was so happy,cos i knew i would ace.
But the very next day,i was back on a wild chase,
I wondered if it was some kind of phase?
Lost in my own expectations,
Every step i took was with hesitation.
Din't knew what i am talking about,
Sometimes,i felt i just needed to get out!
So many thoughts,
So many things to be sought,
Sometimes,these battles are not well fought!
and i still give it a shot!
So messed up in my head,
Attimes i feel so dead!
What makes me go through these struggles?
Is still a puzzle?
Many nights i just can't sleep,
There are feelings that are seeded deep,
I sit down for hours and weep,
Its like i am drowning in an emotional sea.
when i sleep in the dead mornings,
I am running and escaping,
From the realities of my life,
Do i care,how i will survive?
yes i do!
But,the realization of what this state i am in,
Gives me chills!
It's like i know i am in hell,
I know my soul is unwell,
And yet i put up a good show!
So that no one knows,
The pain i hold!
When i know that the show won't last,
I break down into the shells of my past,
Each questioning me was i not worthy?
Each reminding me the games people played where filthy!
I ask do i deserve to be loved?
I feel i was not loved!
Was there something lacking in me?
Or was it that,the men i met were intimated by me!!??
I wander deeper in these conversations with myself,
Breaking down and entering into a cocoon of silence.
Silence is said to be the loudest scream,
Breaking many walls and many dreams!
The feeling of utter lonliness,
Starts sinking in,
Its a walk in the pitch dankness,
Where seeing a hope is like a sin!
Its' like a dance with the death,
The vampires of my life are well fed!
I tend to succumb to all this numbness,
But at some striking point it is an utter dumbness!
So many unsaid thoughts have fizzled in the way,
I wish i can catch them some day!
Sometimes things are well said,
But most of the times its just a mess!
Confessions of a messed up mind,
So much to catch up and lots to whined,
Striking a balance in life doesn't come easy,
Most of the times,i act insanely busy!
Its a feeling,that i didn do much with my life,
All i did was,i survived!
The attacks of the vulturous minds,
Some where worldly and some where mine!
Lately,i have stumbled upon the truth,
Its ruthless and it tells me am the brute!
Its very painful to see this reality,
All the while i was lacking clarity.
People tell me,i am being hard on me,
I have gone through a lot,"so darling let it be."
But i say no!!!
If,i let it be,
I will lose me!
Let these confessions of a messed up mind be!
atleast there will be a clear state of my being!
I am not here just to live or survive,
There is more to my life!
The less confused i may seem now,
But,chances are high that i may fall down,
Capturing this state of mind right now.
Shall turn the tables around!
And so shall it be!!!
I shall discover a new me!
But for now let me be!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Love me so much.....











Love me so much,that i forget my past
Love me so much,that this love lasts...
Love me so much,i don't miss the pain...
Love me so much,that i soak myself in the love rain
Love me so much,like there is no tomorrow....
Love me so much i forget all my sorrows...
Love me so much,i can breathe again....
Love me so much,that i can break these chains..
Love me so much,that when i look into your eyes,
I can see the galaxy and paradise at one time.
Love me,love me crazily,
But,don't expect the same intensity.
Cos once a slicker said i love you
who made me so blue,
It will take me time...may be a while,
Before,i stop n not whine.
You are an imagination,
My perfect man.
I am waiting for you,
In my shadows of black and blue.
I need love,
Cos am a woman of love
I need understanding,
Cos life is full of misunderstandings
I need to be held,
Cos my hearts needs to be felt,
I need to embraced passionately,
cos i need to feel it's intensity
I need to be cherished
cos i have been been wrecked.
I need honesty
Cos i have been lied
I need sincerity
Cos i have been rooked
I need you for me
Cos i need a sense of security
Love me so much i that i love you like insane...
Love me so much that i forget this never ending pain.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Oh,my dear convenient slicker!






Oh,my dear convenient slicker!
I bury my spirit on the grounds of the love games you played.
I bury my heart on the lies you baked.
The dreams you showed me were a passing time.
The only victim was I
So,many creations and abbreviations were made
All were sugar coated made in haste
I was the one who had to taste
The poison of your love with a crimson smile on my face.
Oh,my dear convenient slicker!
Tears bled from my heart,
It was time to depart.
You didn't even care when you pushed me into dark!!
My spirit had lost it's voice,
Cos of your reckless choice.
I may cry today
and die tomorrow.
But,i will remember my heart was sorrowed.
Oh,my dear convenient slicker!
I trusted your words with all my heart
Just to know they were fireflies in the dark
They fizzled pretty soon
like the December noon
You said you loved me
You said you would die without me
and then you just left me
you were just passin your time
with me and the other woman and some wine
i trusted you like hell
but you dint even care to tell
you just put blame on things
sometimes on animals,sometimes on human beings
you lied very well
i must tell
I wished you well,
Even when i was in hell.
My pain you never felt
It is so easy for you to leave things,leave them un-delt!
Oh,my dear convenient slicker!
You left me naked in the dark
where human voice seemed like a bark
I lost my way into you
just to know you were born to make me blue
Oh,my dear convenient slicker!
i don't really hate you
cos i loved you
inspite of you giving me a living hell
Oh,my dear convenient slicker!
Now,I wear a smile that simply appeals,
Cos i am a woman of real deal!
I forgive you for all your sins
Cos you are not worth me but some bins!
My spirit is buried today,
But,i know it will grow into a rose one day.
Oh my dear convenient slicker
You didn't deserve me any day!!

Friday, March 6, 2009

Woman


I am a free bird,
You can't cage me!
I am water,
You can't contain me!
I am sky,
You can't limit me!
I am mountain,
You can't move me!
I am fire,
You can't extinguish me!
I am rose,
You can't thorn me!
I am love,
You can't hate me!
I am a woman,
you can't love me,
until you set me free!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

I am ready to take chances










i am standing here
with the wind caressing my hair
the sky being my canvas
i am ready to take chances
i am going to paint this world
with the colors of my heart
with the brush of my life
i m looking for an inspiration
i feel love,a strange sensation
in this loneliness
my only friend is me
i may feel scared
but i am up here with a brave face
the ultimate success i need to taste
i am ready to take chances
i can see my horizons are unlimited
i am the one who is committed
i may feel scared
but who cares
i am ready to take chances

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“It takes a part of me to create art and when i create,it's a masterpiece. My life is a masterpiece cos i choose to be my best friend and not my worst enemy. What i am today is cos of what i believe in and what choices i make.And what i am gonna be tomorrow depends not on the so called 'destiny',but my beliefs,choices and actions. People who have come and gone in my life,and people who are still in my life,I am thankful to them cos from the chapters of their lives,I learnt and I learnt from my mistakes. I am proud of every freaking fiber of my existing mind,body and soul. Everything i say or do,i am proud of who i am cos i hold no one responsible for my happiness or sadness.I hold myself. My identity is ME=Meaningfully Evolved human being and I am proud of it.!”-Thankam Kumaran

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